Listen to this and read what will hopefully be my last post here.
In my opinion, it’s the fact that when you’ve reached the very bottom, the only way is up. When you’re down, you can replace the word “die” with “live” and your thoughts will still make sense.
I really want to die.
I really want to live.
I also love music, and scenes of beauty… And knowing that we can create good things such as Wikipedia – A massive knowledge base on a network of randomers that is free, and who almost anyone can edit, yet still remains remarkably accurate every day. Or the pyramids, you know? lol.
It’s also really good the way we can keep secrets and know things other people don’t know, but also the way we can be open and truthful to strangers. Basically, life is full of contradictions, and for me it’s about finding home – a place where I won’t mind the contradictions because I’ll be safe and comfortable in the knowledge of where I am and who I am… What I get and what I don’t get.
It’s also the way you don’t have to question why, and you can do anything if you really go for it, wish for it, and want it. The way we don’t actually need anything to survive than ourselves, and belief in the world.
In conclusion, for me there are many things good about life, the best thing is probably realising them all.
I like reading what you write.
Ive really enjoyed reading your blog, I dont comment much but I always read. Hannah X
Well, even if it is your last, I’m glad this specific post would be it because I’ve never heard you sound so happy… or maybe content; happy’s possibly the wrong word. So anyway. I’m glad for you. (:
Suzy x
“It’s also really good the way we can keep secrets and know things other people don’t know, but also the way we can be open and truthful to strangers.”
You will be sorely missed by me.
Thank you for your comment. *hug*
I do like reading what you write. Just in case you feel like doing it again someday.
I did notice you left a comment here recently Never Red and now it’s gone, but I didn’t know how to respond to it or even if I should. Instead I will just say hello to you and say that you are still missed.
Hello, thank you everyone, for your kind words – I have decided to return for now
I see you’ve also changed blogs, Mindful Distractor… Intriguing name. Sometimes we just need to change, or at least feel like we have/can. I felt incredibly pressured when I left that comment, still kind of do now, but it’s not the early hours of the morning before an exam and I’m not drinking. No doubt I’ll post again when that scenario occurs though!
Laterz.
I actually deeply regret deleting my 1st blog but mostly the reason I did it. Too bad there isn’t a kind of purgatory to send your blog to where you can’t touch it for 6 months or so and then a chance to reconsider. Glad to see you will be hanging out here from time to time.